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No I do fine in the real world (I love sports and movies). All I meant was that the actual act of reading difficult non-fiction/conceptual work is difficult for me.

A lot of it is the language, which I find infuriating. I understand that complex ideas need a complex language to describe them, but I am plagued by the feeling that there is an elitist narrative running underneath a lot of things I had to read. There's nothing overly wrong with his; it just makes it difficult for me to sustain interest. Also, the practical fact of the matter is I don't know what many of the words actually mean, and lots of dictionary time is needed, which makes reading more time consuming. This is has probably exposed my lack of sophistication :(

Thank you for sharing though! I have always found, in regard to difficulty gelling with others, that it was about myself, rather than about them. They were willing to engage with me sincerely, whether or not I shared the same interests etc. But I created an unbridgeable gulf for myself by assuming they must find me wholly dull. Once I started pumping myself up with false bravado, it became easy. Socialising is like a video game; it's pretty easy once you get the tricks down.

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